i'm alone again. thanks macci, xian, gel, louie and teta for keeping me company today.
but now, im alone again. i cant be alone.
okay, too much spaces already. gosh! this hurts more than all the hurt i felt before. waking up at the same wrong side of the bed every single day. makes you want to sleep knowing that there's nothing special for the day. knowing that you have no one special for the day. knowing that you have no one special for the next few days, months or whatever.
you know what hurts me most?
the fact that i know, this time, it really is over. he got fed up on me. i dunno.
he knows i cant stand not talking to him. he knows he's my weakness. he knows i cant get angry at him and it was one of our last conversations. the funny thing is, if i cant get angry at him, well he obviously could--at me.
what hurts me is the fact that i have to face this world again without him. just like the past months when we were not in good terms. weird, but this might be harder than last time. last time, we still talk. atleast one of us would reach out no matter what. this time, it's just over.
i cant let him have what he wants all the time. no i cant.
time flies so fast. i remember days when we girls would have h2h and i'd tell them the latest kilig thing jomp did for me. today, they went here not for the latest kilig kwento, but to hear my heart breaking story. (pero di naman ako nagkwento. hahaha!)
he ended something that haven't even started yet.
i need to go to hongkong real soon. i need a place away from everything.